New Year is the best time to look back into the past and look forward for the future. Trying to make some efforts to change ourselves and be a better one for the new year. Many promises were kept though many of them were not.
Year
2011 for me was fine, though lot of things happened. I did encounter some
hardships but I’m glad to say that I’ve passed and accomplished them all.
Though I found out how difficult it is to adjust in every situation, I still
made my best just to make things be up to those people who surrounded me.
As
this new year starts, I did chose this following resolutions to mold myself be
better as much as I can; one is to not stay up late so that I won’t be late
during my early classes. I want to change myself as to be not an over aloof
from those people who want to get close to me.
Way
back to my past years, I’m positive to say that I’m not the kind of person who
really shares problems; I’m a “damsel in distress”, as other people addresses. Others
thought I was a bit cruel, nevertheless they’re judgments were all wrong for it
was just the front I made for myself considering the fact that I need to
protect myself to anyone whether they’re good or bad. But I guess this time
I need to open-up even just a bit, not just because I need to be heard and to
let out my emotions or something but also because I want to be understood and
be accepted.
As
I follow the ethics, I’d say from now on, I will set myself a start of all
starts, but not the end of all ends. I will have something new in me. I will
try doing things which could make everybody think about me when they see and
recognize it. Maybe this time I will set my mind looking forward to reality and
not just more so about fantasies. This another year of my life reminds me of a
woman getting older. For that, I will make myself be responsible enough in
accommodating things which my parents did ask me to. I will try to set my
priorities too because I’m not getting any younger.
Some
says I’m not careful to my words, and I will do my best to minimize this
attitude. I chose the word “minimize” because I do believe that sometimes it’s
better to be frank than keeping it myself for it can’t be any of help.
Too
much for everything, indeed I always do some things for the benefit of others
and I didn’t care at all. With these, sometimes I do forget doing things for
myself. Lesson for that is to put myself first sometimes but not every time
because it might not be good.
Again
too much for my story. Now I’d like to proceed to my new year’s resolution
which was; not to fight back when my mother scolded me, instead I should listen
to her because as the saying goes “mom knows best” and I believe in it. To not
be a stubborn daughter my mother could almost kill (haha!), because I often do
things that make her upset, teasing her perhaps. By doing so, she has lost her
temper on me, and that’s one thing why she scolded me every time. To not take
anything for granted, my studies for instance, as my parents keep on telling
me, I really should take it seriously ‘cause we never know what might happen in
the future and nothing remains constant. Done with the don’ts, now I’ll start
with the do’s; to be a supportive sister to my three brothers because I
realized that it’s the biggest thing that I could give them aside from money.
To have a positive outlook and confidence on myself. To be mature enough to
know things. And lastly, to be a perfect daughter my parents wish me to be,
though I’m not sure I can and that the only thing I can guarantee is a
not-so-perfect daughter, but I’ll try.
So
let’s end it here, much as I believe that only few of these will be kept, I’ll
still try. Besides, this will not really happen if we won’t make it happen
because in the first place, we are what we do, no one’s to blame if we won’t be
able to make this but ourselves.
