Am I mean?

If you say you know me, raise a hand. If you say you've talked to me some time before, approach me. If you think you're right about your judgments about me, then throw a stone at me. And if you think you know me well, then I dare you to be with me in every moment I bleed and every moment I fall. So i could ask you to exchange our shoes and let you feel and grasp what I've been into. Every smile I fake just to not worry the ones I care about, every joke I crack just to see them laugh. Every time I'm broke, seldom the times I'm with someone. That most of the time I deal with it alone. Every hurtful words and acts I swallowed because I know all of this will come to an end soon. Maybe soon, maybe later, maybe never.

So can I ask you about things? Do you have a family? Do you have a mother? Do you have a father? Siblings? If yes, are you with them? Are you happy with them? I mean, is your family happy? Are your brothers healthy? Normal? If yes, then that's good. But if no, does one of them have an illness that may take forever for them to recover? I mean, do you know about bipolar disorder? 'Heard about it? Does your brother suffer from it? Is he at the rehabilitation center? If yes, how does it feel like? Have you had your chest hurt like it's been sliced a hundred times seeing him at his weakest state? Have you ever felt like dying too, as he talked and begged for you to help him? It hurts right? Darn hurts. Have your father ever cheated on your mother? Even once? Twice? Thrice? If yes, have you asked him about it and heard lies as he denied it? Do you even know how it feels like? Do you know how your mom handles it? Deals with it? Do you know that she cries at night, 'till dawn? Or how she did it without letting you know? How she managed to wake up each morning to prepare breakfast for you not to go to school with an empty stomach? How she's still able to wash your clothes with her bare hands just for you to have a nice dress to wear at school? You don't! Because all you can think of are those fancy dresses you've seen at mall, all those silly chitchats you've had with your friends about those cute men you bumped into, those selfie's you had on your phone and your plan to upload it before the dawn breaks. Oh well! A typical teenager you are. But let me tell you few things. If you plan to go on like that until you get old and until forever, then go on. No one's stopping you, as they've said, "You only live once.", so might as well enjoy it 'till your body drops. Heck yeah! That's life, right? But if you plan to make a change just by reading this, realizing (finally!) what mistake have you done, and what things have you missed regarding your family matters, then, I say, it is a wise decision. A very good one. It is still not too late to reach out and lend a hand to the people you've been with since the day you've been given life. It is payback time; it’s your time now to do them a favor. Why not start with a little talk from your sick brother with your other siblings and reassure him that you'll take care of him even until no one's going to. Give him the best comfort he needs as well as the love he deserves from you. Next is, talk to your mom and comfort her as well because the best thing she needs from you is a shoulder to cry and to lean on. Do things to please her, you may start by washing your own dirty clothes, by being her substitute at the kitchen, do the chores that you can handle to lessen her loads. Quite simple, right? Indeed. Simple things touch the heart the most and your mother is no different. And lastly, talk to your father about the matter and ask him about his thoughts about working out their marriage. If you feel like there's still a chance then do everything to have your family back, after all, it's your family. No one's going to benefit from it the most, but you.